Whole bunch of random pics here..... Riley riding the 4 wheeler, quick pic of her reading at her desk this afternoon, and some shots of the house....

The scrapbook is moving right along. I have yet to scan and upload, but I need to do that tonight. I have this insane fear that my house will burn down, it makes me feel safer to have things located somewhere online. I feel like they are then "retrievable". Makes me happy. And someone warped, I know.

We had a rather uneventful day today. Took the bean in the wagon to the post office. She had a ball! Loved the wagon ride! Other than that we really have not left the house! Suits me just fine, although I wish I would have made more of an effort to enjoy the pretty day!!

Just for you Dad

I spotted this quote on a message board today. I think it explains alot.



"spelling errors are included on purpose - any errors that are noticed show that people read what I have written."


Ahhhh. Sweet justice!! <3

*sigh*

I give up. ACOT is holding my order hostage. I am sure of it. Today they took two things out of my basket! Do they not know what they are doing to me? I want them to send my stuff. Now. I am getting verrrrrrrrrry impatient!

Had a little breakdown last night. Getting a little frustrated over some things, and it all came tumbling out. I am hoping for a calm, stress free weekend, where I can just relax.

I did, however, get my picture order from Rileys birthday party. Super cute. Hoping that I will be inspired to get her birthday album started. Better yet done. I will post progress, as progress is made......

Why??

Why won't my scrapbook orders ship?? I am getting so disapointed! I ordered a bunch of stuff online this weekend (good thing Derrick doesnt read this) and its not here! I wanted it yesterday. Or the day that I ordered it! Anytime! Soon! Preferably when Derrick is not home!

So other than that, things are going well. I am feeling pretty good, physically. Still struggling emotionally, but its getting much better. I wont cry at the drop of a hat now, but I still dont want to talk about it in depth. Saturday was my real turning point. I sat down in Riley's rocking chair, sobbing. She came crawling up to me saying "ma-ma-ma" with those little arms outstretched. I just though to myself "you have got to pull it together for this little girl!" That thought has been keeping me in a better place, mentally.

So not much else. Working on cleaning the "pit", also known as my house. Its an absolute disaster! So far I have gotten through 2 loads of laundry, and picked up and vacumed Riley's room. I am hoping that since she has already crashed for the night, I will get more done! Wish me luck....
kristen

Getting Better

I think that most everyone knows by now, that Derrick and I lost our little bean this week. I think that this is hands down the worst thing either of us has ever gone through. I am struggling with feelings of anger, disbelief, and sadness that I am not yet convinced will ever end. I feel lonely, and immensly empty. Yet, life will go on. I am so thankful that we have Riley, for she is a force driving us foward right now.

I dont think that this is something that we will ever forget, and I never want to. Derrick and I wanted this baby more than words can express. I find some comfort in the thought that God needed our angel, yet I feel upset, because damn-it, we wanted this angel too. I know inside that its nothing that either of us did, or did not do. We are not to blame. Chances are, something was wrong, and this one was not meant to be. Yet I feel this sense of responsibility. I was the one carrying this baby. I was the one that lost it. My body. Me. I know that its not logical to think this way, but I cant help it.

Sorry to make this such a sad post. Just wanted to get this out. Thanks.... me.

Yay! Cake!

Rileys first birthday, was wildly succesfull! She had tons of people here, tons of cake to share, and got tons of new presents!! She loved her cake!

I cant not believe that a year ago today, I was preparing to have a child! I didnt even know what motherhood was going to be like! I remember taking a nice bath the night before, poutting the finishing touches on the nursery, and finishing last loads of laundry. None of that could have prepared me for the joy our little one is! We love her more and more each day! Happy Birthday (tomorrow) peanut!! We love you!!

Just cause its been a while....

Everyone is still doing good. Trying to prepare for the big birthday party this weekend!! We are having a tinkerbell party, complete with streamers, tinkerbell plates, napkins and a tinkerbell cake. I can not believe that our wee one is turning one!!

Two Pink Lines

Well. Derrick and I have done it again. We are pregnant!! Due in May! We are both really excited, but I think in shock! It took us almost a year to get pregnant with Riley, so we figured that if we started trying this August, it would take us a little bit. How wrong we were! We are so excited for this little addition to our family!!

Yay! Blogger is normal again!!

Now I can uninstall that Mozilla Firefox, or whatever it is!

So not much going on here. Planning Riley's ist B-day. We are doing Tinkerbell. Should be cute. But then again, anything that involves Riley is pretty cute.....

Hoping to get some scrapping done this weekend. I took a nap this afternoon, just so I could stay up later... is that sad or what??

At least I can post pictures...

But I have no idea why they are all running together!

Here is one from last night. Little cuties!

Creative-ness from the weekend

Started this one before we went out for a girls night last night and finished it up this morning... Am working on another one right now of Riley and Daddy.....

I win,

Holy Crapness. That could not have been any stupider. But here is a picture for everyones veiwing pleasure!

By the way... I had to switch browsers, to firefox. Dad--are you proud, I did that all by myself!! Helloooo-- I am kinda techie!

I am going to win this battle if it kills me.

Or not. I tried to copy and paste. But why would that work. It would be to easy. I checked blogger message boards. Looks like its an issue with blogger. Anyone else having an issue???

Trying again....

Nothing. I still cant post pictures. Help? Anyone??

i think that blogger hates me.

I have tried. Tried and tried. I can not get pictures to post. I have no idea what I am doing wrong. I think this thing hates me. I will try tomorrow. just wanted everyone to know that i am alive.....

New addition pics

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3



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<----5


People begged. I promised. I thought about it. I didnt post. But here they are!

1. from the NW corner
2. looking in from the french doors (that are not there yet)
3. looking out our current back door (from the kitchen, into the addition)
4. From the far NW corner of our yard
5. Looking down the SW corner of the addition.


So there you have it folks! In all its glory!!

Weekend Over?

Grrr. I can not believe that it is Sunday night already. I DONT wanna go back to work tomorrow! I feel like I have accomplished NOTHING this weekend. Nothing. I have however, cleaned the entire house. I have vacumed the living room at least four times. And fired up the grill three times. I just want to crawl into bed and sleep! For some reason, these last couple weekends have just draaaaaaged on. Its like they are so long, and yet so quick. Is that even possible? Today after I cleaned the rest of the house, I sorted through some scrapbook magazines, and got some good project ideas, and got rid of some clutter at the same time! Small feat, in my scrapbook room. I guess that Derrick is going to get the inside of the addition cleaned out tomorrow, so that we can discuss "placement" options. Let me tell you how that conversation will go:

me: "I dont want it that way. I want it this way"
derrick: "But Kristen-"
me: (rudely inturrupting) "I dont care. My way.
derrick: "will you just listen to me?"
me: "nope. I know what I want"
derrick: (getting frustrated) Kristen, just liste--"
me: (insert tears if necessary) "but derrrrrick" (said in the best whining vioce possible)
derrick: "fine. we will talk about it later"
me: (perform small victory dance while derrick isnt watching)

Hey it never hurts to win!! Okay so it really isnt that bad. We are just both VERY opintionated when it comed to some things, and it takes us while to work it all out. We are both very visual people, so we want things drawn out, so we can visualize things.

So just a cutie little picture of the wee one. I took this yesterday in the truck. Isnt it a riot? Everytime I put the sunglasses on her, she would beam! TOo cute, my little button....

Well. Have a good week everyone! I am not saying I wont write for the next of the week..... but you know...

Just Cause

I dont even feel like typing tonight, but figured I needed a good picture to share. I know that sounds mean, but I am burnt out. Seriously. Just tired. I feel like I need a good four days of sleep to get back on schedule. Or to de-stress myself. I went through Rileys clothes this week, with her help of course, and we found this cute hat that Amber gave us. We have been wearing it continously the last couple days that we have been home. She is too cute! Alright. Enough said... more tomorrow, I promise!

Poor peanut....

I'm not stupid. I knew it would happen. I just hoped that it would happen when Derrick was home with her! Poor Riley was playing this morning and bonked her little noggin. She has a little mark, and a tiny little goosegg. I checked her pupils. They are dialating and undialating (is that a word??) Just fine. I have been watching her closly, just in case. Poor, poor peanut! Of course mommy had to take a picture of the injury, just to scrapbook......

Just some new creative things from the weekend!!